Who Are You Really

I know who you are
Who are you really
I feel you all the time
Where are you
Patience is all I have
I cannot wait to see you
Don't know if this is real
It is so very real to me
I know who you are
Who are you really

©2009 J.P.

something Is Calling You-Nora Jones

don't tell them

they'll only drink your tears
don't do it
not in a hundred years

you know it
you feel it
I do too
just listen
something is calling you

what difference
do you think that it makes
if you give
or if its you who takes

i know it
i feel it
you do too
just listen
you'll hear it calling you

what difference
do you think that it makes
if you give
or if its you who takes

i know it
i feel it
you do too
just listen
you'll hear me calling you

Extinguish

Should I go
Should I stay
Anymore, I really don't know
Would it matter anyway
Divide myself, am I insane
All that I am, have given
Was it in vain
And through the facade, you were NOT driven
To me, a possible deceiver


Extinguish all that I was,
All- that I am
What- was meant to be
Doin the best that I can!
Extinguish the me, that is meant to be!


With whom I trusted
But the voices inside tell you not to believe her
Inside ultimately disgusted
Fuck the lies
Used as your experiment of illusion
Empathetic bullshit to despise
Snuffed out confusion
Now the flame suffocates
Dimly burning inside!
Spirit now defecates
To reveal that which was to hide


Extinguish all that I was,
All- that I am
What- was meant to be
Doin the best that I can!
Extinguish the me, that is meant to be!


©2009 J.P.

Last Letter

Dear You,

How are you today? I hope you're happy. My one wish for you, the one I've always dreamed of and love. Did you know that the very thought of you, makes me smile? Your words, sing volumes of truth inside. I am in here. Always waiting for that moment we reunite. No matter where you may be, go...no matter what you do. This heart is always with you. And I miss you everyday, but not worried. We will both live each moment, as busy as we are. Walking side-by-side, however never really whole. At least not here. I have loved you for eternity, and felt you all along. Just never really remembered. Do you? What decision will we make, as these final moments awake? I'd love to share everything with you. Patience holds me until then.

I will not lie though...I feel lonely without you. The only one who can speak the same as I. Express yourself, freely as I can with you. And tears fill these eyes, the more I allow myself to acknowledge your absence. I have prayed myself to sleep, nearly drowning in each tear. And in your eyes, I forget about any fear. Instead, I think about the memories that swim inside.

So until we meet again, know I am always with you. Waiting, patiently. Always loving you. More and more, each and every moment.

Always yours,
Me
P.S.
I cannot help but wonder...did you come here for me, or was it I, you?

Eyes

I could drown myself in them for an eternity
Embed myself into you in every lifetime
A story unspoken, pours from them
One we cannot hide
We were created for one another
And in those windows
Rests a part of me
As in these, rests a part of you
Yes, I do want everything
And that everything is you


©2009 J.P.

The Gift

I don't have much
However, I want to give you everything
To share everything with only you
Taking in all you say, all you give
Feeling all that I am grateful for
Cherishing the gift that has been given
Like a child, waiting to open it
For what seems like a lifetime
So worth the wait
And right now
I enjoy admiring the beauty of the wrapping
The ribbon that is so intricately placed
Softly caressing it's folds between my fingers
Silky and soft to the touch
And the sound of words spoken to my soul
Bring great tears of joy and delight
Anticipation grows with each and every moment
A feeling no other could understand
Let alone manifest the way you do
Everything around us fades
In the presence of you
This Divine blessing I receive
In all of it's fullness and beauty
The search is finally over

©2009 J.P.

Cannot Explain

Smiling as I fell to sleep
Throughout a grueling day
Thoughts of you I keep
Watching the night turn to day
You give me tears of joy
Adversaties to conquer through hope
The whole of you to enjoy
Strength all the more to cope
The inspiration is you
Amidst laughter and understanding
With whom I look forward to
NO more, do things seem too demanding

You've given me something to be cherished
And it has only just begun

©2009 J.P.